oh deary me, my lj says i haven't updated since february. sorry for that but i was lacking serious inspiration and some skills.

but thanks to my ever-so-trustful muse i was finally able to come up with a little something.


Title: More than Words
Author: me
Rating: PG-13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Romance
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: So did he really have to say ‘I love you’ to make Harry believe?
Word count: 1,358
Disclaimer: my guess? Not true. The only real thing in this is Harry's twitter-update.
Dedication: manuanya. Thanks for everything.
Author’s note: This is what happens when I get a Pudd-mail from Manu. Well, I suppose that and the fact that I haven’t written anything in what must have been forever.

( More than Words )

so, here i am again. bringing a story your way.
i'm still going through somewhat of a tough time, hoping that it will at least wind down at some point.
but in the meantime, enjoy what i came up with.

Title: Reunion
Author: me
Rating: PG13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Comedy … if anything
Pairing: PoyterJudd
Summary: “Okay, what could possibly make me this happy? Like, so happy that I feel like jumping around like a madman while bursting out into random songs.”
Word count: 822
Disclaimer: probably not true
Dedication: ♥ manuanya ♥ who is always there for me. Be it with encouraging words or distraction, pictures or just nothing but a look. I love you, dude!
Author’s note: So I guess we all heard it right? Blink 182 are back together. Which makes a lot of people happy. And I had the thought … how did Dougie take it? So I let my imagination run a little wild.

( Reunion )

see? i've gotten the hang of it again!
creativity-dryspell is officially over, people!

Title: Summer in the City
Author: mostly me
Rating: PG
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Romance
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: Of course his and Harry’s holiday had to be over at some point.
Word count: 2,214
Disclaimer: still not true
Dedication: ♥ manuanya ♥ again! She is my only inspiration these days and really, I owe her so much more than just a story now and then.
Author’s note: This is a companion-piece to 'This is It'. You should read that first, maybe.

( Summer in the City )

wahey people, i am back!
16 weeks i have been gone. i had to deal with death, life and just a lot of sadness and frustration.
and now i am back in the world of stories and words and it feels just so good.
now i can take on the world again. and it better let me do it.

Title: This is It
Author: me
Rating: G … PG maybe
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Romance
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: This is It. Just what Dougie wanted and needed and imagined.
Word count: 1,612
Disclaimer: Not true, a real shame
Dedication: This is entirely for ♥ manuanya ♥! Because she was there when I was in need for someone the most, and she was there just like that. She brought me back to life and made me smile when I thought I lost the ability to do it. What you are about to read is inspired by her so this is not just dedicated to her, it is hers.
Author’s note: So this is my comeback-piece after what? My journal says 16 weeks! I think it differences from my usual stuff but as long as I can write again, I’m happy.

( This is It )

okay so ...
my nan died. this morning.
and i'm ill and just ...
there's a whirlwind in my head and i just want it to stop, really.
more than anything, i want it to stop.
thank god i still have my writing, otherwise i'd go insane.

Title: I’m living with what you’ve done
Author: me
Rating: PG13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Angst
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: He didn’t believe in promises. Promises were worth nothing.
Word count: 4,288
Disclaimer: I’m pretty sure this didn’t happen.
Dedication: mostly my Puddner in crime manuanya and my CazzaBUMFACE. And everyone else who was there for me in the past days and kept me from breaking down.
Author’s note: This happened when I listened to nothing but 'Down goes another one' for almost a day. I analysed. Of course. But I thought that just Dougie had written the song until manuanya told me that it was actually Dougie, Danny and Tom. So when you read this, just imagine that it was Dougie alone. Because … that would help, really.

( I'm living with what you've done )

oh.my.god. it's a story!

yeah, i needed to do something.

my nan is about to die. and i've lost my job.
found out about both in the timespan of a few hours.

and then i got myself a new job and had to re-schedule my mcfly-tour for november for the second time.
first it was glasgow and liverpool. then it was sheffield, newcastle and liverpool. now it's just liverpool.

so yeah, my world is in shreds but i need to stop myself from thinking or feel sorry for myself so i wrote.

Title: Those Summer Nights …
Author: me
Rating: NC17
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Smut
Pairing: PoynterFletcher
Summary: Summer days drifting away to … ah … those summer nights
Word count: 2,851
Disclaimer: no true *shakes head*
Dedication: nicky1388 who prompted me ages ago. Her prompt was ‘Summer’ and she wanted a Floynter, of all things. And if you want to, you can prompt me here but be aware that it will probably take forever until I will write your story.
Author’s note: This took me forever and a day. Because I don’t do Floynter normally. But I’ve been going through more than I could take recently so I welcomed pretty much every tiny thing that kept me from thinking.

( Those Summer Nights … )

woooooop!
i just booked some stuff for in less than a week.
cos i'm seeing manuanya, oh_mumble, armillarysphere and evolia and a few friends from scotland.
and i'm seeing doug and harry and tom and danny aka mcfly
and i'm seeing my friend zara afterwards.
and i'll spend some time in a plane and at an airport and in trains.
and i'll basically will get out of this shithole that is my hometown and away from the hellhole that is my workplace.

but first, i'm bringing a story, yes?

Title: From Dawn til Dusk
Author: me
Rating: PG13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Comedy, Fluff
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: Some days are just not meant to be perfect. Or good. Or at least normal.
Word count: 3,683
Disclaimer: Lies! I suppose.
Dedication: to ♥ Manu (manuanya) ♥ who not only prompted me with ‘Dawn’, requesting a Pudd, but who I also randomly met the other day and who I had an awesome night with, filled with laughter and booze and fags and Dougie and Pudd and annoyance and weird men and one line out of this story ;) She’s basically awesome, actually. Hope you like this, you crazy chicken.
Author’s note: I needed and wanted to write some Pudd again. And this just came about after I thought back of the day Manu and me met and four hours after I was done and smiling like the Cheshire Cat.

( From Dawn til Dusk )

good gracious, is that to believe?
i'm posting a story!
miracles do happen, don't they?
yeah, sorry i have been away for absolute ages. i've been kidnapped, you know. by my job. i'm barely home these days, let alone have time to be creative.
still, in the approximately 20 hours i have to myself each week, i managed to write something.
wanna read it?

Title: Keep me a Secret
Author: me
Rating: PG13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: AU – Drama, Angst, Self-analysis
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: Falling in love was a stupid idea. A really stupid idea.
Word count: 8,835
Disclaimer: Naaaaaaah! Don’t believe me.
Dedication: Everyone who missed me!
Author’s note: So yes, here I am again. I was on a bit of a hiatus. Not that I wanted to be though. But work sucked all my strength and energy out of me and I'm actually happy that I even had time and strength for this piece. It means a lot to me and it took me two months on the dot to finish it. So I only hope and pray that you lot like it.
Also, I think I remember that there once was a song with the same title by Ainslie Henderson (does anyone actually remember 'Fame Academy'?) but the song has nothing to do with the story.

( Keep me a Secret )

hellooooooo!
oh my god yes, is is me. been gone ages, i know.
just .. had to get that simple plan-tour over and done with. which was a whole lot of work. apparently it's harder to get over and done with something shit than something good.
then i had stress at work.
and now i still feel horrible. i'm still having stress at work. and i have about six million things going through my head that i can't seem to solve.
and all that is apparently not stopping me from writing.

Title: Believing in Miracles
Author: me
Rating: PG-13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: AU - Romance
Pairing: PoynterJones
Summary: Dougie Poynter didn’t believe in miracles.
Word count: 4,709
Disclaimer: nope, not real
Dedication: to my girl Star star55 as a very late birthday-present. Plus, she prompted me with ‘Miracles will happen as we speak’ and because she apparently likes to torture me, she wanted some Pones. But hey, anything for her, I suppose. Happy belated birthday again, love!
And if you want to prompt me, you can do it here.
Author’s note: This piece really wasn’t fun. Took me about a month to write this. I started before I went onto my Simple Plan-tour from hell and then I came back and writing was the last thing I wanted to do. But I know what happens to those stories I don’t finish so I forced myself to write and I hope the outcome is fairly decent.

( Believing in Miracles )

heyyyy .. happy belated easter and all that jolly stuff!
hope we all had enough chocolate?

tomorrow is 'german idol'-day in my hometown.
which means i'm going to see the poser j.j. again.
and i'm gonna see the man with the voice.
and i will die.

andandand .. i've seen that i got a few nominations for the mcslashawards .. like, three alone in one category and all that?
thank you guys!
i have no idea who voted for me but really, thank you!

and now .. story?

Title: A Million Touches
Author: me
Rating: G … completely clean
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Romance
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: A touch is a hand that is placed on something, an object or another person. Your hand makes contact with something, or someone, and it’s called a touch.
Word count: 2,133
Disclaimer: not true
Dedication: leathlin who prompted me with ‘Touch’ and asked me to write some Pudd. And I did … with pleasure. And if you feel like setting me a challenge, you can do it here.

( A Million Touches )

eeeeeeeee .. i have a ticket to see doug!
august 16th, grantham, i'm there!

latest obsession = german idol.
there is this guy and he has this orgasmic voice and .. no good.

must distract myself.
story anyone?

Title: Exposed
Author: me
Rating: NC-17
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Porn
Pairing: JuddJones
Summary: Those two inches of exposed skin between the top of his shorts and the bottom of his t-shirt …
Word count: 3,996
Disclaimer: not true … I think
Dedication: to Star star55 who prompted me with ‘Exposed’ and wanted me to write some Junes. Et voilà!
And if you feel like prompting me, choose something here.
Author’s note: So, yet another boysex-story from me. I’m slowly getting a hang of it, I think. And this is also my first Junes everrrr!

( Exposed )

eeeeee .. pammy vs world 1-0!
i beat the booking-add and booked almost everything for the simple plan tour in one smooth go!
i feel so pleased really.

aaaaaand .. i got a million dollar smile from a million dollar boy this morning.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand .. i'm bringing a story.

life is good, innit? ;)

Title: It’s the End of Something Simple … And the Beginning of Everything Else
Author: me
Rating: PG12 (there might be a dirty word once in a while)
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Romance, Self-analysis (hah, I created my own genre!)
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: We’re just living our ‘thing’, our simple thing.
Word count: 2,073
Disclaimer: not true … probably
Dedication: for Ams (elphee) Thanks for the challenge which wasn’t really a challenge to be honest, hehe. Also, thanks for letting me help supporting Mister Judd.
Author’s note: This piece was supposed to be one of my prompts but in the end it didn’t really fit to the prompt but because I liked it, I just kept writing. And as luck would have it, it worked perfectly with the Baldy McCharity Fic-Project.
The title of the story is actually stolen … I suppose no one but me knows this but it was the slogan that was used in the TV-advert for ‘Dawson’s Creek’ before the show first started in the USA (I’m a sucker for that show even though it stopped a million years ago)

( It's the End of Something Simple … And the Beginning of Everything Else )

eeeee, i will book stuff for simple plan this week!
for my birthday-week and all.
and i might buy me a ticket for the foo fighters.

Title: Runaway
Author: me
Rating: PG13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: AU - Romance
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: Harry turned back around, smiling to himself. So maybe this holiday wasn’t as much a waste of time as he thought it would be.
Word count: 6,004
Disclaimer: this is not true
Dedication: to manuanya, who requested this story. It’s for Harry and for charity and therefore, I can look past the fact that you basically giving me the plot restricted me a bit too much (next time, keep it simple with a pairing and a rating?)
Author’s note: So here goes my first bit for the Baldy McCharity Fic-Project. At first I wasn’t too happy with the request for the fic but as I wrote, it started to grow on me. After all, holiday-romances are something I seem to be good with, right?
And I may add … I have never actually been to Portugal, so I have no clue how it is there.

( Runaway )

oh look, a free afternoon, sort of. hasn't happened all week.
i'm exhausted. and tired.
and booking stuff for simple plan next week. eeeeeeee.
and i have a story.

Title: The Beginning
Author: me
Rating: PG12
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Romance
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: “Why do you think I’m not ready?”
Word count: 2,453
Disclaimer: not gay, not true … that’s what they say, at least
Dedication: to juddpoynter who prompted me with ‘Beginnings’ and requested a Pudd and therefore gave me a prompt for the sequel to The End and Reminders. And if you feel like prompting me, do it here.
Author’s note: And here we have the third part to my latest little trilogy which I nicely titled ‘The End is Always the Beginning’. We’re bringing the circle full close.

( The Beginning )

-sigh- the week of nothing to do is over. almost.
tomorrow it's back to work and then it'll be straight through til saturday evening.
and then i'll try to squeeze in panic at the disco some time on thursday. and maybe buying a ticket for the foo fighters and stressing out because i need to book stuff for the simple plan tour.

my life really could've chosen another week to catch up with me, seriously.

anyway, i'm here to bring a fic.

Title: Reminders
Author: me
Rating: PG12 (swear words)
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Self-analysis
Pairing: PoynterJudd … Poynter/OFC
Summary: “You’re spacing a lot today. What’s going on?”
Word count: 2,831
Disclaimer: not true, not gay … I think
Dedication: to b_u_n_n_i_e_s who prompted me with ‘Flashback’ and requested a Pudd. There you go, love. It’s not really angsty though. And if any of you would like to prompt me, you can do it here.
Author’s note: I love my readers. The prompt b_u_n_n_i_e_s chose goes hand in hand with The End which was another prompt. So this is the sequel to that. I’m just so clever, aren’t I? The flashbacks are in italics, by the way.

( Reminders )

woohoo .. i have a week off. a week of no work and of generally nothing.
i might as well be in heaven.

to celebrate, i'll bring a fic.

Title: The End
Author: me
Rating: PG13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Angst
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: What we have, it had to end at some point.
Word count: 2,142
Disclaimer: oh god, hopefully not!
Dedication: to manuanya who prompted me with ‘Endings’ and requested a Pudd. I hope this meets your expectations? And if any of you wants to prompt me, you can do it here.
Author’s note: This was supposed to be an entirely different story for an entirely different prompt. But then it turned out to be this one for some reason. And then I suddenly got really caught up in it and wrote the story in less than an hour.

( The End )

so, i think i have mentioned that simple plan are the best band ever?
because last week they prove it again.
they are the best. period.
all of them. even (and especially) the diva.

buttttt .. i am ill now. i can't speak. and work pisses me off. and my dad, he really pisses me off.
my life, basically.

anyway, story?

Title: Curiosity
Author: me
Rating: PG12 (there could be a swearword here and there, but it’s clean otherwise)
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Romance
Pairing: FletcherJones
Summary: I think I’d like to be you, Danny.
Disclaimer: no true
Dedication: to the_first_chibi who prompted me with ‘Curiosity’ and wanted a Flones. And here it is. And if you want to prompt me as well, you can do it here.
Author’s note: I don’t know if I’m happy with this. Apparently, I was so eager about that whole prompting-thing that I forgot that I have to write other pairings than Pudd as well, oops :)

( Curiosity )

oh my god, simple plan.
i actually forgot about their awesomeness.
camden takeover was the best in history .. probably the only one as well.
three gigs in one day are actually do-able. it's just the day after that's killing.
all in all it was fun though.
and in april they're touring. and i'll see them in glasgow on my birthday!
try to beat that, life. i fucking challenge you!
i'll miss out on the harry-thon though. shame. i wanted to go as a cheerleader and blow doug away.

whatevs, trevs. i do bring a new story as well. happiness all around it seems.

Title: Happy Birthday
Author: me
Rating: NC 17
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: Porn, Smut, Boysex … call it whichever
Pairing: PoynterJones
Summary: “It’s not a happy birthday yet.”
Disclaimer: not true *shakes head violently*
Dedication: to the very evil Star star55 who prompted me with ‘Birthday’ and who I hate for this because she said something along the lines of wanting smut and no trace of Pudd. At all.
Author’s note: So, apparently just because I started on the porn, that’s what I have to do now. Great.
And if you want to prompt me, you can do it here.

( Happy Birthday )

mmmm .. can't think of an introduction actually.

only .. i want mcfly .. now.
the following story brought up memories i guess.

Title: The Scent of Smoking
Author: me
Rating: PG-13
Chapter: 1/1 … Standalone
Genre: ???
Pairing: PoynterJudd
Summary: If anyone ever asked me what type of scent will always make me think of you, they’d probably be surprised by the answer.
Disclaimer: not true … probably
Dedication: for ♥ Emma (orpheous87) ♥ who prompted me with ‘Scent’ and requested a Pudd and actually made me write one of my favorite pieces everrrr. So, it’s all for you, dear. And thank you sooo much for chosing this.
Author’s note: Eeeeeeee … my first prompted story, go me! Aaaand … if you wanna prompt me and basically make me your slave, you can do it here.
And for the sake of seeming like the adult I'm supposed to be … smoking is bad for you, very bad! Don’t let this story lull you into anything else.

( The Scent of Smoking )